I took the cat outside and as I stared out into the nothingness, I felt the wind blowing - I was focused. "The 5mg Dexedrine has kicked in" I said to myself. A little panic came over me - "Are you ok?" said my sister. I think to myself, "Am I ok? - I'm in a new consciousness now.. Should I take benzo?" - No.. don't take benzo... Everything is the way that it should be..

Meditation is wayyyy more difficult without ADHD meds. It's EXTREMELY difficult. I never knew how difficult it was until I did it before bed when they have worn off.

But it seems effortless with the stimulant. I wonder if I meditate at moderate doses, my focus would get better - That's honestly what I believe. Because what monk has ADHD? Nada.