I'm going back to work in the hospital next week and I'm very nervous.

Not just about getting COVID, though that's there, but because my boss just told me what part of my schedule will be (she hasn't, specifically, decided on the rest).

I'm to work at home all day on Monday's (an extra hour was added), and then on Tuesday's I have to drive to a satellite hospital we have which is about 50 mins away from me. I'm deathly afraid of driving, especially in rush-hour, so this is now a source of enormous anxiety. I will also be taking care of that whole hospital (within my profession) by myself because we have a tiny office there and they're only allowing one person at a time to work there.

The following morning I may go to the main hospital to work, and Friday's all day at home. Thank god I get Thursday's off. I have therapy in the morning and then since I have so many doctor's appts, I always schedule them for Thursday's.

But I'm afraid of lack of sleep, which is the BIGGEST trigger for my BP, and all the stress. I'm afraid of the driving. I'm afraid of COVID. I'm deathly afraid of what will happen with this election. My mother is getting more and more ill, and I'm afraid she's in her final decline, I am so afraid for her. I am so frightened...