Candy,

perhaps taking a look at the list I just posted in the Diss. forum could help at a time like this Surviving the Emergency Stage

I pray you get through tonight okay and awaken knowing you can get through this with support. Learning to ask for enough support during the really hard times can be painfully difficult for survivors of csa or neglect. I know I spent many years wishing people were mind readers and could just tell how upset I was. I had to learn to reach out and it still is challenging in many instances. I keep trying though as I surely could not do my healing work alone.

Take gentle care Candy.