I never had to endure the shear brutality you did. But I was bullied verbally, emotionally & physically by a gang of older boys beginning in junior high school & throughout high school. And when I finally tried to reach out for help, no one believed me either or perhaps they just didn't care. In fact, at one point, one of the bullies beat me up breaking my nose. When he was asked about it he said I called him a name. (Fat chance!) Thus I got blamed for my my own beating. So I can fully understand how you received the kind of response you got from counselors & others... dreadful! I hope your situation is better now & that you are safe at last.