I am confused as to what this all means. I am presenting most of these symptoms but not very single one. I can't put my finger on it and need help. Any BPD sufferers please help. My doctor just thinks it's depression, but it's more than that. I don't think I'm bipolar either, so it's weird...

* Frantic efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment (sometimes)
* A pattern of unstable and intense interpersonal relationships characterized by alternating between extremes of idealization and devaluation (I do that too, but not to an extreme sense)
* Identity disturbance: markedly and persistently unstable self-image or sense of self (definitely)
* Impulsivity in at least two areas that are potentially self-damaging (e.g., spending, sex, substance abuse, reckless driving, binge eating) (I used to want to drink excessively but otherwise no)
* Recurrent suicidal behavior, gestures, or threats, or self-mutilating behavior (definitely)
* Affective instability due to a marked reactivity of mood (e.g., intense episodic dysphoria, irritability, or anxiety usually lasting a few hours and only rarely more than a few days) (dysphoria lasts for maybe an hour but everything else cycles)
* Chronic feelings of emptiness (definitely)
* Inappropriate, intense anger or difficulty controlling anger (e.g., frequent displays of temper, constant anger, recurrent physical fights) (Worse more recently)
* Transient, stress-related paranoid ideation or severe dissociative symptoms (Paranoia caused by stress and some disassociation)

What does this all mean? My mood is usually in flux with a baseline misery. The depression usually doesn't last very long and gives way to other moods, but I'm never excessively happy, only slightly happy. What does this all mean?! Help!