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2. What are your main symptoms, the reasons you went into therapy?

I had a total breakdown into clinical depression a few years back. It happened during a time when I was losing a relationship with a close friend of mine, who was like a mother to me. I sought help, was diagnosed with major depression. But it soon became apparent that I had alot of past trauma and pain pushed down for decades, and it burst into my consciousness. Since then, I've also been diagnosed with Complex PTSD (PTSD w/borderline features)
and GAD.

3. What do you think are the origins of your symptoms?

Being born especially sensitive to very young parents who did not really want children or know how to parent. Neither parent knew how to express emotion, and neither was physically or verbally affectionate. Dad drank alot, and then goad me into conversations where he would put me down or laugh at me, and then make fun of me when I would cry. Most of the time, my mom was nearby but did not do anything to stop it or console me afterward. My mom was a very upbeat happy person, but was so tied up with her job and so "ultra positive" that she never noticed my problems or could help me with my emotional pain. I had alot of separations from mom early in life. I was a preemie and also was hospitalized at 6 weeks for pneumonia. My mom returned to full-time work when I was 11 months old. She also took numerous business trips during grade school. I remember these separations as being extremely traumatic. I was left with babysitters often, and then was a latchkey kid. My parents would often go drinking after work and not come home when they said they would, which would scare me because I would think they had been in an accident and were lying dead somewhere. I also suffered many losses of friends and pets because we moved so much, and was molested by a neighbor.

4. How successful has your therapy been?

Overall, I've learned alot of helpful things. My biggest problem has always been my attachment and loss problems. I have alot of unmet needs from childhood, a very strong desire/need to be emotionally close with my therapist. But I am deathly afraid of attaching with her for fear that when termination time comes, I will be devastated. Fear that it will end up feeling like one more terrible loss, where I've attached to somebody who then goes away. This has always kept me preoccupied with our relationship and feeling "insecurely" attached. Every time I feel any sort of closeness or bonding with her, I get fearful and find reasons to pull away or get rid of the good feeling, out of trying to protect myself from attaching and then being abandoned. This keeps me always semi-armored and emotionally guarded, which prevents me from being able to truly trust and go into the deeper trauma/healing work.