I wake up every morning with anxiety. I've been taking my "as needed" anti-anxiety pill every single day lately. I have 3.5 months of unemployment benefits left. I've been out of work for 3 months so far. In the 1st month, I learned that I should apply for the same role as I had before, because I get more replies.

But right now, I have zero job prospects in the pipeline. I DO pay attention to the many negative reviews about a company. They DO matter to me. I was going to apply for one job today, then I read the reviews which said the company is failing financially and that jobs are unstable. Two massive rounds of layoffs in 2019 alone. Ok, no thanks. I don't need to get employed only to be unemployed again.

All I need is ONE opportunity, with a company that has mainly positive reviews. As long as there isn't negative review after negative review, then it's fine. But I do need stability too. The last thing I want is to be looking for a job again immediately OR to be laid off yet again.

But I am scared and am very anxious. This is a most anxiety provoking experience.

Silver lining? Recruiters and prospects contact me at random for new opportunities. So I never know what's around the corner on any given day.