I say this with love. I disagree.

You're dialed in on spiritual stuff. That is a pattern for you when your manic and psychotic. I take no issue with religion, but it is an intensity concern. It is a trigger for you.

You've had quite a few personal and family concerns lately, they have taken a toll.

You said you were on new, not yet approved yet meds and they were working great, but they aren't working. What does your pdoc think?

You've been working a lot on projects and I know how you hyperfocus and how your mind works because mine does the same thing.

Your language patterns are similar to what they look like when you're manic/psychotic.

I am not sure how you are home so quickly after an attempt and being seen in the hospital. I am confused as to why you weren't put on a mandatory hold.

I think any one of the things I mentioned by itself is probably not cause for major concern, but when you add it all up I would be a horrible friend if I didn't say I am worried.

What are you up to today? I think it would be good to get a safety plan in place. No religious activities. Limit reading and research. No project work. Limited music. Limited caffeine, sugar and chocolate. Limit watching the news. No politics.

Maybe a day of coloring or just sit to petting your cat. Do some laundry. Watch a movie that isn't activating. Take a shower. Do some dishes. Just basic mindless tasks to slow the brain down and cool things off.

I am so incredibly grateful you're ok. You've been on my mind and I am glad you checked in. Let me know if there's anything I can do to help.