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Originally Posted by Have Hope
Thank you, kindly. 
I really need to absorb and re-read what you've written a few times more. It's very encouraging, validating and supportive, which I really need right now.
My parents are perfectionists. I was overly criticized for everything that I did as a child - including each emotional reaction I had to something upsetting. I was never taught to accept myself or my emotions. And with my parents being so overly critical of me, I'm terrified of mistakes and beat myself up endlessly over them. My parents did more harm than good... and I am still dealing with the aftermath of a damaged childhood. That makes me really angry. I don't blame THEM, but I wish I had had effective therapy by now, and I have not. |
I know the feeling of having to "get everything right." It helped me a bit doing a touch typing course, and just getting used to little mistakes. I haven't been comfortable playing games, seems like a waste of time, but doing anything playful or creative can help, too. It's a hard thing, and takes time, and if you can be patient and kind with yourself it'll only make it less painful! Haha, easier said than done!