I did have the discussion with my therapist and yeah, it's over. I'm cured when it comes to fears and dysfunctional behaviors. She suggested that maybe I'm better off alone, since I do not show any need for someone to be beside me.

And yeah, it may be it. I don't need anybody to help me or to support me or to care for me. I win anyways. And I'm not saying that with anger, it's the truth.

Interesting and a little bit sad at the same time as I think about it now.