I got out a and looked at it trying to decide if I wanted to give in and SH. I thought about all the people who are counting on me to make this work...this being living without self harm. I thought about all the days I have lined up (284) without self harm. I read some scripture and prayed. It was kind of funny because I have the under a stack of prayer cards at work and the top one kept coming off and flipping upside down which has the scripture on it. So I finally was able to put the away.