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Originally Posted by SlumberKitty
I am really wanting to self harm. It's been coming and going in waves. The past couple of days have been hard. It's more in my head and my emotions than a physical thing. Sometimes it is more of a physical thing. My pastor (Who is also a therapist) says I have an emotional and physiological addiction to self harm. Right now it feels like the battle is in my head. I'm not even sure what is triggering me.
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Hey Slumberkitty,
I guess this might have been suggested before (I don't know though) - do you ever find journaling your thoughts, without censoring them, to be helpful? Or maybe scribbling or writing in red ink, or coloured pencils? I wonder if journaling your thoughts might help you to uncover what is triggering you. (Personally, I haven't really got into journaling. Someone had said they would be happy to tell me more about different sorts of journaling. (This person is not around at the moment
)
I think some professionals know about this, but not any I have consulted in this forest irl. Grrrr
Maybe your pastor is right, it sounds as if its framed in a slightly (maybe) ''blaming'' way, I don't know. Or rather, it sounds rather impersonal. These are just my thoughts, I'm not censoring myself as much as I usually do. I hope some of it is helpful, or at least not unhelpful.
ETA I think you're doing a great job sharing in this thread (maybe its sort of like a journal
)
Hugs and respect