Thank you for the reply. I've got some update on this, as we've just had a session with T again.

At this point I'm wondering if I'm unfit to psychotherapy as a whole, as I really do care about the other person, as a person. I see that T has some difficulties. Where this troubles me is that the problem is T and I became too close personally. I could really handle this closeness, but T seen this as practically indistinguishable from a friendship - hence unprofessional.

I'm might be just splitting hairs here, but I certainly don't feel like a patient as I certainly have no clinical pathology. I'm there for self-knowledge, better adjustment, more efficient functioning.

I felt safe throughout. I'm apprehensive about the future. It was T who thought the boundaries were too loose, so T asserted this, but did so in an overly vulnerable way. I guess the reason was that I did not find the boundaries being too loose in the first place, if anything, just ideal for myself, and being in an excellent empathic connection, T could sense this, and me first in the relationship, only to realize later, T made a mistake by neglecting T's own professional needs of keeping a certain distance, neutrality and anonimity.

What T did find uncomfortable and was vocal about is having our sessions reach over 30 minutes of assigned time and attributed it to T's compensation for making too much self-disclosure, therefore using my time on T's interest. (these boundary crossings in time did not mess up T's nor my daily schedule though)

However, I've found T's self-disclosures immensely helpful, so we've concluded that this was an insecurity on T's part. We are now keeping time.

I guess another boundary looseness that makes T uneasy is my friendly, direct conduct. I am not willing to give up on this, as I have to be congruent in the relationship in order to work on myself. T reciprocated this. We could really connect as two persons. This might be fine with person-centered therapists (my orientation) but unprofessional by T's standards.

T disclosed this has only happened with me from all of T's clients.

I wonder if I really am. It looks like my closeness and our personal fit is standing on the way of objectivity - T finds being opposite to being subjectivity. This dichotomy causes great anxiety in T.

Where my anxiety comes from at the moment, if we can't carry on counseling, will I lose the personal and the psychologist-psychologist dimension of my relationship with T? T is extremely conscientious and considers to be conservative. We're colleagues after all, and actively do the same sports. Post-termination meetings are inevitable.

I mentioned to T, I'm ready to consider termination, as I've gained so much from our sessions. T agreed, but for now we're checking how we're working out. After our previous sitting I felt a bit like we're committing violence to our natural relationship, so I'm leaning more towards termination.

It would hurt me though letting T go completely out of my life, as T was an important, personal ally when talking, as psychologist-to-psychologist, about professional issues. I guess that might been a gray area T didn't had cleared up, as T acted like a real person, someone who T is not comfortable with in the framework of therapeutic work in retrospect. What is hard at the moment is that it's clear that T can't handle this smoothly. I would be happy to make this a collaborative effort, but that really takes its toll on T, and I'm naturally concerned about our personal relationship. To add insult to injury, T has disclosed a couple of months ago, that T always had very bad experience with each of T's supervisors.

When things are as complicated as this, I think termination is probably the best option, as T's therapeutic framework with such elements is practically unmanageable.