I woke up with an anxiety attack. Messaged my brother because I was crying and I couldn't calm myself down. I feel guilty because it was 4am but he told me he was up anyway. Then I messaged my friend R asking if i could come over. After class she came to mine to collect me. Then another friend I also recently got back in touch with called her to make sure I was okay because I hadn't replied to her message from two days ago.

I felt loved, but not like I deserve it. Back at mine, she said I could stay if I wanted to but I had food at mine

Get that you're not my mother and I send too many emails, but ignoring me completely when I told you I wasn't feel well seems cruel.

The other T F emailed to say he spoke to his supervisor and it was okay for him to see me, but I don't feel like he's a good fit.