Thank you Fuzzybear! I haven't been able to really journal, but this thread is kind of like a journal although I'm happy when others interact with me on it. My T always tells me to just write and write and write until I am done writing but it's hard to even get started....she says even just write one word. I don't know. I have a mental block or something. Sometimes I do get out some markers or colors and just scribble and that can be cathartic. Thanks for your hugs and your thoughts.