This election stuff is making me so freaking tense.



I just want to talk with you. I want you to change, to be more reassuring to be more comforting. In my Monday class the child analyst running the session was modeling the way she speaks to her patients and it brought tears to my eyes. In the memoir I'm reading, the group therapist held his client, willingly, even suggested it himself, and it made me mad.

Part of me thinks I should find another therapist but I am so freaking attached to you, and my psychiatrist thinks we are doing good work so it's not just me alone being crazy and having ****** attachment-related judgement. And maybe the thing I want is bad for me somehow, or I don't deserve it.

****.