Hello
Sorry in advance for the content

I recently experienced an epiphany about things that happened when i was young and not caring about a person who i should have never let go.
10+years has passed and truth is I've just been a lazy *** b***h with no respect for him and life
I removed what happened through years

And Now i know what hell is

Im going mad

So this is hell, discovering Death for real and realizing you ****ed up
I really couldnt do it before my father's passino away