No one has given me a definitive diagnosis. My therapist tries to tell me that having a diagnosis isn't important but it actually makes me feel like more of a freak of nature not knowing. She told me that I had DID despite knowing anything about it. (I also have that diagnosis from a specialist( I tried telling them from the very beginning that I do NOT dissociate. Now my therapist understands that and has taken back my diagnosis. She said she thinks the thoughts I hear that arent mine (chatter) are because I don't feel. Things are to traumatic for me to feel but it is IFS parts not DID parts. So I understand all that. Im not saying she's wrong. Why the Heck does my chatter always talk about being five? Or when I go to the grocery store the chatter talks like a child (my voice in my head but like I'm talking like a child and I dont think them) and the chatter says they want everything in the grocery store. Like I eat cake because I'm five. I want potato chips. I want everything in here. Etc. Why would this happen now at 44 years of age. Im so tired. I can't see anyone else nd keep here. I tried that and my insurance didn't pay for the specialist but the specialist isn't trustworthy anyway.