CANDC, Sorry for the loss of your dad. I read once, and beleive it, that significant losses can take 3 to 5 years before intense pain begins to subside. Sounds like the healing is happening. I can only imagine that warmth but never knew it. I was relieved when my father died and terrified every day of my life when he was alive. One thing I vowed was my kids would never fear their dad and the don't. He is their moon, stars and sun and it is a gift to witness. Glad you have good, warm memories.