It's been nearly 5 years that I've been single.

I had one guy ringing me up every day, I had red flags, why did I keep going? Because maybe reality is different to therapy.

But it's not really so different. I need someone to treat me with that kind positive supportive attitude. Someone who has my best interests at heart. Like the way I think about my kids. I want the best for them, and am always happy for them and excited about their futures.

So of course, this guy just bonked me and ghosted me.

So I'm not sure what I'm trying to say, except that it's very difficult to be open to trusting anyone else out there, and any hope of a life partner who is that good to me, and I can be good to them, in the way I love and care for my friends and kids.