Wow, the above post could have been me in many ways. I am 53 and going through divorce after 23 years of marriage. It is quite painful and was a surprise to me. My days feel lonely and empty most of the time and y mind goes over and over the past years trying to put sense to why we are here. I am in therapy each week and look forward to those sessions to help provide clues on how to move on. All my happy memories are now filled with sadness. I have joined a different church and that has helped. I have also started to volunteer to see about putting my energy toward others instead of inward. But, what we are all going through is the grieving process and the only answer I can truly find now is time and allowing myself to experience the denial, anger, bargaining and acceptance steps. It is quite lonely often, but I have started to have daily talks with God although they seem one sided a lot. I wish the best for you and just know that you are not alone and there is hope on the other side.