Thanks all for sharing. I appreciate all of our common experiences. It is a conundrum to figure out how much is our "fault" vs. how we can function in our society the way it is structured. I have come to the conclusion that society is not ready to accept our mode of being. For instance, if told people that I have cancer or MS, they would totally accept where I'm coming from. But to have an MI...people don't know how to react. OK, this is an extreme example, and I was not in a good situation, but I was at a bar once and talking to the guy next to me, and he noticed that I had a medical band on my wrist, and he said "what is that for?" and I said "I have bipolar", and he actually said "Don't kill me." and he was an Afghanistan vet! I had been so respectful in asking him about his experience, and he totally blew me away. Oy...