Dear seesaw,

I am so very, very sorry you are afflicted with treatment resistant depression. I can't even imagine how awful that is. I wish I had something helpful to offer, but sadly I am at a loss. Something called CBT helped me a lot, but I don't have treatment resistance depression. I hope others here who are more experienced and enlightened with have something really helpful to off. It is just heartbreaking what you are going through and I am terribly sorry I could not be helpful to you in this situation!

Sincerely yours, Yao Wen

PS. Since I am not a physician or health care professional, nothing I write on the Forums is advice. I am thoroughly unqualified to give advice that you or anyone could or should rely upon.