Here I am again with the constant fear of and obsessive relentless thoughts of aging and dying.
I have gone through this for the last 20 years. I worked so hard the last 20 years and I got better for a while but this is the worst now. I am 47 and I hate it. I dread older age and illness and dying. I have impending doom constantly too. I have no idea how to help myself. I know it is pointless to obsess about aging and dying and I just want to enjoy that present time but these thoughts and fears just will not go away. I wish they would. I am trying so hard. I just went through an expensive 30 hour intensive trauma therapy with a counselor but it did not help at all. Distractions, meditations, exercise, medications all do not work either. I have no clue what to do. I cannot even function in basic stuff too. Has anyone been through this or can offer some solution? Thank you.