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Originally Posted by Xynesthesia2
I would be curious about how you coordinate your own MDMA experiences. For example, how do you time them, do you plan long ahead and prepare for them somehow? How about frequency and dosage, how do you decide on these? Do you vary what exactly you do during? Do you discuss it with your husband in depth afterward? Only if you would like to share more, of course 
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there are quite a few resources that i found helpful when i was first researching and learning about doing the mdma assisted therapy:
the manual (protocol) that MAPS uses for their mdma assisted therapy sessions (free to download)
A Manual for MDMA-Assisted Psychotherapy in the Treatment of PTSD - MAPS
'Psychedelic Psychotherapy- a user friendly guide to psychedelic drug assisted psychotherapy' by R Coleman
Amazon.com
there is also the Castalia Foundation (founded by Timothy Leary) that has released a protocol for solo mdma therapy. some aspects of the guide were quite helpful, others were not:
https://ia902906.us.archive.org/5/it...DMA%20solo.pdf
and if you are familiar with reddit, the community in the sub r/mdmatherapy has been is incredibly invaluable for me with many of the personal stories, experiences and information shared there.
in the beginning, i was doing my sessions about 12-14 weeks apart, but for these last two, the time in between has been longer because i have been doing them based on when the time has been feeling right to me...more on a gut feeling, listening to what my mind/body seems to be craving. but as i've done more sessions, and have integrated more issues, i've noticed that need or desire seems to waning and i don't need to do sessions as frequently.
in regards to planning the sessions, i do spend time preparing, like putting together a personalised music playlist that will be long enough (7-8 hours). i often do sessions on a weekend so i have time to relax and reflect after the session. i also go into the session with an intention of at least one issue i want to focus on, but the best thing is about this powerful medicine, is it seems to know exactly where to take you and often i unexpectedly address something that i was not even considering. a lot of healing can happen because of the insight that is revealed and this is where the integration work afterwards comes into play. i'm discovering that the integration process actually can last for many weeks afterwards. i often write or journal to help with the integration process and also talk and share aspects with my husband.
what i like best about the mdma therapy is how internal the process of the sessions are with most of what is going on is taking place in my mind and body. i talk very little and my husband mostly is sitting with me, offering words of comfort or encouragement if i seem to be struggling a bit with the process, or he offers physical comfort by holding my hand and/or holding/cradling me. he often says very little unless i'm the one talking to him. i actually find the physical holding and comfort he can provide me to be one of the most helpful aspects of this therapy with him and it actually has helped promote some of the most profound experiences of my healing.
your shroom trips with your partner in your earlier days may have had similar aspects to what i'm doing with my husband. there is an incredible sense of safety being able to do the sessions at home with my husband who i trust like no other. after my 'less than satisfying' experiences with regular psychotherapy and never being able to fully trust or feel safe with my ex-T in the relationship throughout my therapy with him, i'm pretty confident that i will continue to do my sessions this way and not seek the assistance of a therapist. these mdma assisted sessions have such an immense quality of sacredness for me that i have no desire to share that experience with someone i fear could potentially let their ego or issues get into the way. but i'm not adverse to others seeking the assistance of a therapist if that is what they desire or reckon they need. there definitely are many ways and options to heal with psychedelics and i believe it's quite personal and about finding what works best for each individual and the healing they are seeking achieve.