All morning at work I was aggitated, with a seething below the surface that has no place to go, has no name, no outlet, no reason for being there. I was in a fog again and haven't been for a while. I was barely dealing with people, the focus on being polite was what was getting me through. Inside I was screaming "For Gods sake, leave me ALONE!!" Even when not being bothered by people I was seething, feeling trapped, wanting to just run ..

I look around and others seem to be relaxed, working contentedly, just being and doing and I don't think they have the internal screaming chaos going on, that intense roar like the sound of a packed stadium... It's so tiring.