So, I'm not going to give details. But here is the gist: a person was hurtful to me. It was a person I met from online dating a year ago. It did not work out.

He texted me recently very randomly and out of the blue, and was rude / hurtful. He'd said he was drunk.


In response, I told him to go **** himself and to learn how to speak to people. I then blocked him.


This may sound weird in this context I've given, but I feel extremely guilty. I think this person may be misunderstood and may have untreated mental illness. Also I know it's covid, but I worry about what if I ever see him in public? It might be awkward.


There was a part of me that was thinking about apologizing. Or just wishing him well. Because I don't want my *****y side to be the last thing someone sees before I block them.


I've been treated poorly a lot in my past though, and just took it.


I don't know why I care so much. We did share something special, back then. But he was not healthy. I was also working on my ****.


I just feel unsafe when talking to him. He does not feel like a safe person. Thinking this over, I think..........just dropping it probably what I'll do.


There's a part of me that wants to "Try to understand him," and "maybe I misunderstood him." He speaks very vaguely and doesn't communicate well in that when I am direct, or ask a direct question, he ignores it.


I think I just need to leave this though and not communicate anymore with this individual.


Advice and support is welcome. Criticism is not welcome.


Is it okay to just leave this and not apologize? How do I cope if I ever see him in public?