Dear WovenGalaxy,

I am so very, very sorry that you are suffering this distress. Wish I knew what to say to ease the inner conflict you experience. It is painful to be conflicted about things like this. I know this from unhappy personal experience. Sadly I don't have the knowledge, experience or insight to offer any helpful advice. I do want to tell you that I think you are a very good person. My heart goes out to you. I really hope things work themselves out for the best. Sorry for my poor and pathetic response to your distress!

Sincerely yours, Yao Wen