I am sorry you are having a hard time. I too find teletherapy difficult. My T has commented on how much progress I have made because I do not dissociate. For me it isn't about feeling safer at home. It is because I feel less safe. I hear the other people on my house plus she is not physically there to make me feel safe. I fear she would not be able to bring me back so easily. So I am not able to completely be in the room or attempt to allow feelings at all. Last night I stated to freeze and then heard a child talking. It brought me back partially.