Dear MimiBhaduri0,

I am so terribly terribly sorry you are suffering! ! ! Are there suicide crisis hotlines in Kolkata who could talk to you? It is really heartbreaking that you are in such distress! Having suicidal thoughts are a medical emergency. Please go to a hospital as soon as soon you can. None of us here would want to see anything bad happen to you. Unfortunately I am not a physician or medical professional or crisis hotline counselor. I don't want you to be all alone with your suffering ! ! !

Sincerely yours, Yao Wen