The difference is still so amazing. One of the cats loves me to bits. I wrote about it on my blog but I don't want to link it publicly.

I'm just kinda sad because my brain circuits seem wired for passive SI, and my 2 non toxic siblings have been ignoring me. Need to work to get more work on fiverr... I only have had 1 order and the competition is fierce.

(don't worry I'm safe, stopped self harming probably 9 months ago)

This year's birthday is going to be bittersweet. 2 friends gave me a red packet (usually only families do that) with enough money for 2 weeks of groceries. I'm grateful.