Myzen, I'm really starting to believe the initial cause of my depression was from rejection. And, as I said before, the right kind of positive feedback from someone can really give me a self esteem boost although it's not usually a stable one. Something "different" like that is happening in my life right now. It's kind of like an emotional roller coaster. I think I have something to look forward to but all it takes is one negative thought of self doubt to fixate on and I'm back down. At least I have a sense of hope.