super hard night with the urges and the parts taking over. went to yoga today again - triggered=parts take over=chocolate = manic (now, which is new)=danger zone. haven't cut since the 7th.... trying to get through tonight. already chewed off all my nails, ate a chocoalte bar, 5 brownie cupcakes (that was the manic stage of making and eating them) and have been trying to keep busy ever since. the destructives are trying to take over (worse than just my little one) and i am having quite the time of it.