I hate it too, it’s just not the same. I miss the safety of his office and feel like all I’m doing is waiting. It really hurts. I hope I get to see him next year. The thing that also gets to me is that a few months ago he would repeatedly say “maybe I’ll start seeing people face to face in three weeks”. But it never happened and then a second lockdown came. I feel like he got my hopes up and now it’s even harder. And sometimes the internet is bad on his side and the video doesn’t work so we have to switch to phone. It’s disruptive and painful and I hate it.