Hi Everyone,

It’s been a very long time since I’ve been on this forum (almost 12 years to the day) and I’m back because I’m having feelings that I just need to share and perhaps get a bit of reassurance from the community that I’m not losing it.

My first experience with DP/DR was in 2008 and I remember it being awful, but because I didn’t keep track of my thoughts and feelings back then I’m having a difficult time to tell myself that these feelings and thoughts I’m feeling now are just because of my anxiety DP/DR and that I will be okay.

The most frustrating thing is that I thought since I completely cured my DP/DR before that I’d never end up feeling like that again, but now it’s back and I just need to have someone tell me I’m okay and that these thoughts are just DP/DR and I’m not actually losing my mind.

These are the most unsettling feelings I’m having and I just want to get them off my chest:

— I’m getting anxious over thoughts that I can’t actually put into words. So it’s difficult to say “oh that’s just a silly thought” when I can’t find the words to describe it.

— I have these thoughts that I just feel super disconnect from myself and my life. It’s like I need to click into place but I can’t.

— I have this feeling of days and nights etc just feeling like they all run together.

— I have these thoughts that life seems pointless and that I don’t really know why I’m alive or why I’m getting out of bed each day.

— I’m afraid that I’m going to end up completely dissociated and that my conscious is going to completely leave my body.

— I also don’t seem to remember what it feels like to feel normal.

— Then there are just feelings that I have that I can’t put into words.

I’m sorry if this was a really long pointless post I just need the advice.