On my meds, I'm not good enough because I either sleep, do too much self care, or am not up to everyone's par of what I should be doing. Off meds, Im told I need to be in the hospital cuz I'm not doing the right thing by not being on meds or just ya know, I'm too sick. On meds with symptoms, it's my fault I'm having symptoms because I'm not doing something "right" in my life.