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Originally Posted by jen1017
The most frustrating thing is that I thought since I completely cured my DP/DR before that I’d never end up feeling like that again, but now it’s back and I just need to have someone tell me I’m okay and that these thoughts are just DP/DR and I’m not actually losing my mind.
These are the most unsettling feelings I’m having and I just want to get them off my chest:
— I’m getting anxious over thoughts that I can’t actually put into words. So it’s difficult to say “oh that’s just a silly thought” when I can’t find the words to describe it.
— I have these thoughts that I just feel super disconnect from myself and my life. It’s like I need to click into place but I can’t.
— I have this feeling of days and nights etc just feeling like they all run together.
— I have these thoughts that life seems pointless and that I don’t really know why I’m alive or why I’m getting out of bed each day.
— I’m afraid that I’m going to end up completely dissociated and that my conscious is going to completely leave my body.
— I also don’t seem to remember what it feels like to feel normal.
— Then there are just feelings that I have that I can’t put into words.
I’m sorry if this was a really long pointless post I just need the advice.
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I assume (?) you might have once gone to therapy but because of feeling better, are not going now. I am not an expert, but many of your symptoms make me wonder if your mind is subconsciously dealing with a past trauma. When I went to therapy four years ago, I found myself unexpectantly dealing with a traumatic event that happened in college. I truly thought it was no big deal but when I brought it up in therapy, the anxiety, and thoughts that the conversation unleashed made it apparent that perhaps the event was more traumatic than I realized. Don't know if this applies to you but I wanted to make sure you got some kind of response. Sorry you are dealing with this.
Anxiety and all the rest of the things you are experiencing suck.
