It’s been a long time since I posted in here.

The last few nights I’ve been getting some self destructive thoughts. Last night, was to start skipping meals again

Tonight to start skipping meds again.

And well, it’s all downhill from here really.

I’ve been doing so well, and I’m terrified I’m about to throw that all away. But at the same time, I’m not sure I want to stop myself.

There’s part of me that’s telling me I’m way overdue this self punishment and I guess I believe it..