Drank a coffee and work coffee. I was getting OCD obsessive thoughts all morning at work and frustration and agitation when I got home so I took 0.5mg of alprazolam. Now I feel tired.

Gonna mind rest and try to read.... I'm really sure what I should actually be doing. The news gets me down - And worrying about my mom.

I feel like a failure but I've never been late for work always there on the dot at 9am for 4 months. I feel good to help out this dying restaurant.

I don't know what's gonna happen. I have no time to research conspiracies and didn't bother learning about investing cuz I have no money.

I thought of buying 4-methylmethcathinone to quell my mental health but I'm depressed and don't care about drugs anymore - New route, do something else, new..

I just want to function but lately listening to music. There's so many realms that I can get into but I need guidance of some sort - Not the video chat people - Although they did help. I just can't take judgments like that.