I'm in college studying in germany this semester, because I thought it was something I've always wanted to do, but my problems only followed. Like that saying "You can't run away from your problems forever". I do live at home when I'm not in school, but I don't want to anymore. I'd like to live on my own and have a wonderful successful happy life...you know that ideal sorta thing, but just never happens kinda life.

I don't know what I'm doing with my life, I'm pretty much crashing and burning again, this time I won't be able to pick up all the little pieces and put humpty together again. I could pay for the therapy on my own, but they'd catch on, since I have a shared bank account since the government won't give me grant money for school if I make over a certain amount of money. That way my money's in my parents name, and the government gives me more money for schooling. Which I don't even know what I'm doing in school anymore. I'm just passing by, just like in highschool....

My dad also recently just got laid off this year, so that's just another burden they have to handle. How could I possibly drop this atom bomb on them? I'd rather not, they're going to be hurt enough when I finally tell them everything, I don't want to make things worse for them...