part of me thinks i should reach out to you. another part of me thinks 'why'?! and another part of me argues i 'don't like to need anyone'!?! and another part of me wishes you never 'see' this side of me....


on another note -> something may be happening that could crush me and drive me into the 'dark depths'. and without my aunt, i'd 'hide' from everyone - including you, even though you might be the only human IRL to give a dam ....
there's that side of me that wonders if you'd even notice if that happened