I don't know
I find it hard to understand how she behaved
She has been cold, didn't have the patience to understand i was going through changes in my teens and early twenties
She didn't speak to me and behave in a proper way when i was young, both my parents have been childish and this eventually caused me to mature late in life
I did **** up my life myself, anyway.
I was aware of many things and behaved stupidly.