Hi Dr. S,

Some of what has come up for me today after last night is our rupture - how I felt about what I saw in you. I am very sad and scared about that. I think it might be time to talk a bit more about what happened then. If we don't ever talk about it, then how can I really know anger is safe with being in the room with us? Does it really matter if it was projection or perception? Maybe then I wasn't ready to believe you, regardless of your response. Now, maybe parts would believe you. I'm not sure. I'm not sure if I see the difference between you trying to challenge my reality and your actual feelings.

No matter what I say or how mean I am, I need you to be able to contain it -- which sort of sounds like I need you to take it. I guess in a way, I do need you to take it in terms of witness it and yeah I guess channel that energy without taking it personally or taking it into you.

love,
me