Dear Lenovo6,
I wish I had some wisdom to share on the matter you bring up, but sadly I don't. Hopefully others here will see and read your post and will have good advice for you. So sorry I could not be helpful to you in this. I have often been afraid to do things that other people are not afraid to do, so I can feel for what you must be going through. Best to you!
Sincerely yours, Yao Wen