I wish I could say something to make you feel ok...

with hindsight, I know that it's never as bad as I thought, and I've actually turned out ok when I've managed to force myself to go out... but hindsight is a wonderful thing, and things will seem so awful just now. I always say if I could be 're-born' and choose one thing to have, one thing to know right from the start, it would be hindsight!

I'm not much help, I know, but I know what you're going thru, and I hope you feel better soon. If it's wanted, here's a hug for you,(((van)))

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