@Prycejosh1987 I noticed that you have been looking at and posting to different threads, some of which are older threads. You seem to have a message of forgive and try to heal and help etc., You have never had your own thread here at PC. I wonder what YOUR story is and why you express a need to forgive and try to help so much.

When I experienced a trauma where I suffered so much loss I was emotionally overwhelmed and experienced a post traumatic breakdown. I had no idea what that was but what I do know is that I was not getting much sleep and basically dealing with addressing all the loss and a death I could not prevent and I just could not do one more day after 3 months of constantly addressing more than I could handle.

I ended up in a psych ward which was the wrong place for me to go, what I needed was a break and to get some real rest and be able to process all this loss. I was never so physically and mentally and emotionally exhausted in my life and I had been through plenty of things that traumatized me.

While I was in this psych ward I went into a big room where there was a televison and I was alone and dazed just watching whatever was on the TV. A guy came in and sat close to me and he said he was Jesus Christ and that he could see I was in a great deal of pain and that if I let him touch me he could take my pain away. Well, that was the last thing I expected and yet I was struggling so badly a part of me "wished" this stranger could touch me and take all the pain I was experiencing away.

He talked about how he was put here to save others and sacrifice himself. I was kind to him, yet I did slowly get up and walked to my room. He followed me around the next day and I did not know what to do. That was the first time I heard the word "psychosis" and that this young man was psychotic and being treated for that challenge.

I knew he was not a bad person, but instead a very HURT person. Somehow, he believed this hurt meant he was put here to recognize hurt and heal others. He was confused and genuinely thinking he had to give up his own needs for others.

I think you are trying to be a healer, but you cant give up yourself for the broken. You have to heal your own brokenness. Truth is, it's not an easy thing to do. Especially for a kind and nice person, they tend to hurt so much deeper to a point where they get very crippled and very lost.

You remind me of that very hurt and lost man and the truth is, he was the one who needed the help and to be saved. He needed medication and help to deal with his own hurts.

Does that make sense to you Prycejosh1987?