And it bothers me. My therapist suggested that maybe “I have no needs when it comes to having a partner and I should think it through… what do I want?”. And I got stuck.

I’m doing great in general, my dreams slowly become my reality. My career prospects are looking good and we’re talking about my dream job, I shaped up, got myself new clothes and I'm getting a lot of attention from women, I'm doing good with money despite covid crisis and more and more. I’m not bragging here, I it is the way it is.

The path was pretty messed up though, I was a super d … ck to myself. I was living up to impossible standards and I did well. I’m more human now.

As I said many times I never expected any kind of help from anybody and I don’t need to be loved, I don’t need you to talk to me or to support me in a struggle. I'll be fine, I love struggle.

Sometimes I miss people and I want to hang out. If I work 24/7 at home, this need may appear once or twice (in 7 days). I love to impress people. I love winning and I'm good at it. That’s pretty much everything I feel as of now.

I don't know but I feel like I could do more good if I was out there, meeting new people. But I get bored so quickly and I'm not into toying with human beings, that's for sure. Actually I'm hoping for any piece of an advice but I have no expectations, as always. Appreciate you reading this. Thanks.