“in fact the second woman I ever dated was black, very black, and a wonderful, amazing woman. In fact if I hadn't already signed up to join the military I probably would have wound up with her long term; but she didn't want to follow me into that life.”

“ I've dated women of color, I think some are very attractive, but I've learned about myself that no woman gives me the feeling of complete attraction like a white woman does,”

^these statements you made seem contradictory to me. Could your obsessive thinking about romantic racial differences stem from your ex who didn’t want to commit to you?

Btw- someone actually put on their dating profile a preference about circumcision?