I hear people say things to or about me and I'm like whoa did he really say that. They're mean things that I did nothing to provoke. It could be as simple as someone saying "airhead" or "fatso" or (insert racist word). One time I was on Zoom and thought I heard the guy's wife saying "Are you on the phone with that fool again"?

These words really hurt like daggers in my heart. They cause a great deal of anxiety. I feel like if I pop an antianxiety med each time this happens, I'll run out of meds. Plus that's not a good way to deal with it.

In some cases, people probably aren't saying these things. That still doesn't ease the hurt. I just want the words to stop.

Does anyone go through this and if so, have you done anything that helps? I've talked in therapy about it but that doesn't seem to work.