Never realized how thin the walls and floors are in my building. I can hear the person above me playing guitar. The daily building works from 7.30am 6 days a week also make this place special and to top it off they will be coming on the 25th between 9-10am to check the cooker and fridge as usual. I hate people in my space.



I skipped my last session with R, because I was ashamed of the stuff I told him last time.

Then I failed my exam on top which added to my shame.

I sent him an email saying I would pay for the session I missed, but that I didn't want to do therapy anymore. Not heard back yet.

I was reading my old journal dated last year November the 8th. It was the same thing a rupture over contact. Out of context he asked then "I never understood why you always made email such a big deal?

Generally I wouldn't send the third email if he'd replied to the first two and I know I have been impulsive with saying I'm cancelling but I still came anyway.. I need to know that he's still there.

He did previously reply but I feel like he has made the unilateral decision of no contact between sessions when he did give me that before and second sessions too.

I don't know If i'm making the right decision to stop going altogether, but I feel like he can't adapt to my needs. Or maybe it's my wants and his way would be better for me.